Monday, February 23, 2009
school, work, work, school
So it's been awhile. Not on purpose, but all the same. I feel as is I am getting nothing accomplished, but am always so busy. Scott is just over halfway done with paramedic school. Second quarter has been a little bit of a blessing in a way. He is past all the somewhat meaningless stuff and has moved into cardiology and pharmacology. I think it is a little more challenging and keeping his interest a little more. There were times during first quarter that I didn't think he would make it. Not so much because he wasn't getting it, but because I believe he was bored. I just keep looking toward July when he will be done. It is getting very rough for me. That sounds funny, because he is the one in school, but hear me out. Scott does have a job right now, but it seems to be a challenge for him to get any hours. Half of the time he does, the boss downs the truck due to low run volume. So, basically I am working to support the both of us. If we would have known before that this was how things were going to be, we would have done a few things differently. So, for now, I look towards July and just keep my head down and keep trudging along. I am still working at MedCorp, which I am not all that happy about. I should just be glad I have a job, I know. But the employees are treated so badly I just want to come home and cry some days. We get paid horribly for the job we do, which makes me not want to work any overtime and believe me there is a-plenty. But I know for now, this is what I have to do. And even then, we are struggling. He keeps suggesting he drop out of school.....what can I do to make him understand that this is NOT an option? I hopefully will be starting back to school on March 31st. My classes will be online at least for this quarter, because no way can we afford for me to give up any hours. On a lighter side, I have started job shadowing a physicians assistant, Molly, at Fort Hamilton Hospital. We seemed to hit it off pretty good and she seems to be impressed with me. The reason for me doing this, is because it looks good for when I apply to school this fall. And, with any luck I will be able to have Molly write one of my letters of recommendation. I was able to buy my new TV this weekend. Yes, I know I said we have been struggling, and god knows we have, but this is something I have been saving for for awhile. I was supposed to have gotten it at the beginning of last year, but we had the wedding to think about then. So, when I got my tax return back on Saturday, we used a little bit from that and what I had saved to go buy it.....FINALLY!! So now I have a 46inch LCD flatscreen with HD. I am so happy. My hope is, is that it gets me out of my funk I have been in at work. Other than that, there is not much to report. Hopefully I will have a new camera soon, so I can put new pics up here, on my facebook and on my myspace pages.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Lonely
I really miss being home. Like home, home. Cincinnati will never feel like home. We still have no snow. Sadly, it's one thing I miss. We have plenty of cold, just no snow. It doesn't seem right.
Plus, I am bored down here. I don't have many friends here, and the one's that I do live almost an hour away...south of the river. I am used to being at home where I have my sisters, my family, my animals, and mostly my friends. I have my fire department, places to go, things to do. Here, I have Scott and that is about it. I go to work, I come home, I go to bed.
Scott is not home tonight. I hate these nights even worse. I sit at home, alone. Bored. Lonely. Tonight he is at work, which is even worse than school nights because I have to go to bed alone. We need to get away, but we gotta have money to do that. So for now, we keep doing that. I feel like I never have anything exciting to say. It's always the same. Work, sleep, work, sleep.
I gotta get out of this funk.
Bedtime now.
Plus, I am bored down here. I don't have many friends here, and the one's that I do live almost an hour away...south of the river. I am used to being at home where I have my sisters, my family, my animals, and mostly my friends. I have my fire department, places to go, things to do. Here, I have Scott and that is about it. I go to work, I come home, I go to bed.
Scott is not home tonight. I hate these nights even worse. I sit at home, alone. Bored. Lonely. Tonight he is at work, which is even worse than school nights because I have to go to bed alone. We need to get away, but we gotta have money to do that. So for now, we keep doing that. I feel like I never have anything exciting to say. It's always the same. Work, sleep, work, sleep.
I gotta get out of this funk.
Bedtime now.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Christmas is over.
Okay....officially today....CHRISTMAS IS OVER. My in-laws came down to Cinci today and dropped off our final christmas present, a king size sleigh bed. Now, we knew about this already, but we had to do some planning. The mattresses couldn't be delivered until Thursday, and the bed frame had to be brought down from Columbus today. It is all together and looks beautiful and feels wonderful!!!! I am so excited.
I also made a pasta bake that turned out fantabulous. Now, if I only had a little more time to cook since I DO enjoy doing it. I can't wait for Scott to be done with paramedic school and back to work full time so that I can take a little time off, and a little time to myself.
Unfortunately, as it looks right now, I didn't get hired at the new West Chester Medical Center. I interviewed last Friday, and they told me they would let me know within about a week. This past Friday, I called the lady for a follow up and left a message. About an hour later, I got a form letter email stating the day time position had been filled. I guess there is a small glimmer of hope for the night position, but since she said about a week and they still haven't called me, I'm guessing, no. I was really looking forward to that, too. I so badly need out of MedCorp. I think I have just been there too long. I HATE it. Some days I literally get sick thinking about going in to work. We have just outgrown our capacities, and they just don't care.
I did find out about a medic to RN bridge course I am going to look in to. They start accepting applications in March for a fall start. I can do that, still apply to PA school, and if I get in will be finished with my nursing degree before PA school would start.
And, before anyone asks, I am still planning on doing my apprenticeship in funeral directing so I can be fully licensed. But, unless something magically happens to pop up, this may have to wait until Scott and I move to Columbus in the next couple of years. I am still looking, though.
I hate my life, but I am going to go wallow in my misery with my husband in my new bed. That still sounds funny. I've been married for 4 months now, and it still sounds funny. And, this marriage crap is hard, but we are surviving. We fight, we talk, we laugh, we cry. I'm hoping in the end, the good outways the bad. I know it is especially hard with him in a poor job, and going to school at the same time. And me at a job I hate. Enough whining. Off to snuggle.
I also made a pasta bake that turned out fantabulous. Now, if I only had a little more time to cook since I DO enjoy doing it. I can't wait for Scott to be done with paramedic school and back to work full time so that I can take a little time off, and a little time to myself.
Unfortunately, as it looks right now, I didn't get hired at the new West Chester Medical Center. I interviewed last Friday, and they told me they would let me know within about a week. This past Friday, I called the lady for a follow up and left a message. About an hour later, I got a form letter email stating the day time position had been filled. I guess there is a small glimmer of hope for the night position, but since she said about a week and they still haven't called me, I'm guessing, no. I was really looking forward to that, too. I so badly need out of MedCorp. I think I have just been there too long. I HATE it. Some days I literally get sick thinking about going in to work. We have just outgrown our capacities, and they just don't care.
I did find out about a medic to RN bridge course I am going to look in to. They start accepting applications in March for a fall start. I can do that, still apply to PA school, and if I get in will be finished with my nursing degree before PA school would start.
And, before anyone asks, I am still planning on doing my apprenticeship in funeral directing so I can be fully licensed. But, unless something magically happens to pop up, this may have to wait until Scott and I move to Columbus in the next couple of years. I am still looking, though.
I hate my life, but I am going to go wallow in my misery with my husband in my new bed. That still sounds funny. I've been married for 4 months now, and it still sounds funny. And, this marriage crap is hard, but we are surviving. We fight, we talk, we laugh, we cry. I'm hoping in the end, the good outways the bad. I know it is especially hard with him in a poor job, and going to school at the same time. And me at a job I hate. Enough whining. Off to snuggle.
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